just

i don't know

as chaotic as that year was, i wish we could go back

we could do everything over. i couldve done everything differently with you. and im sure id be less confused now.

goddamnit, you don't know how much it kills me all the time that i didnt do anything that year.

ill never forget when you came to my house and we just sat outside for hours and stared up at the sky.

sometimes i wish i could spend every night with you

but sometimes i hate you. sometimes i wish you never came into my life.

times like these though...i'm hopelessly and senselessly infatuated with you.

and sometimes i wish you'd get the hint. sometimes i wish you'd do something about it. sometimes i just wish something would fucking HAPPEN and i wouldn't have to spend every single night thinking "someday, something, sometimes..."

this entry hardly expresses what i'm feeling right now, but I needed to make an effort

i still believe that everyone who's come into my life has come into it for a reason

i still haven't figured you out

i still haven't figured us out.

happy october!

I don't really know what to say, I just feel like I've been neglecting livejournal lately.

uh

homecoming was really fun

football game last night was fun

my friends are really cool

i can't wait for halloween

i'm a hopeless romantic

and goddamnit I think I'm falling for you again and I you don't understand how annoyed it makes me
but whatever, we'll settle this. we always do.

I'm very very very hungry but I wanna update my livejournal first, loool.

well it's been like exactly a week since I updated last? damn feels like forever. well nothing that interesting happened anyway. a three-day weekend came and went and the only thing I really did was go to Victor's on Sunday, haha. everyone played mahjong but I just watched since I didn't feel like losing any more money, haha. then after a while we just sat around and listened to music and then we watched observe and report. fuckin hilarious. funny day.

oh, and I babysat on saturday too. but that wasn't very exciting.

yesterday was normal.

today was FUCKING AWESOME, though. like seriously. it was our first day of chamber, which I was really excited about...and we were really really really good. not exaggerating. I wish I had joined chamber freshman year, haha, then I probably would've been in it the past two years. But yeah, I'm not gonna mind going to school at 6:40 twice a week for that. :D

my day was normal. we had an assembly about standardized testing, woo. -_- though as long as we take the tests WE GET 5 EXTRA POINTS ON OUR QUARTER AVERAGES FOR ENGLISH AND MATH. I might actually get an A in English FUCK YESSSS. but yeah. that starts tomorrow. kind of dreading it but not really since it'll be over with quickly. hopefully.

anddddd I got a 93 on my math test :D i was soupt since the class average was like a C+, bahaha.

SCIENCE CLUB~ damn lots of freshman are joining. and there weren't even any announcements about science club! jeez. well we got the science olympiad events today and THEY HAVE MISSION POSSIBLE OH MAN. super nostalgia right there, haha. If I'm lucky I'll end up doing that with Tim and Conorrrr. woo. we played with slinkies, too. haha that was fun.

after that a bunch of us went and played ultimate frisbee, sooo much fun! it was like...me, victor, billy, gary, garrett, davy, renee, kang, darien, julie, jon, tim, mike, and this kid brian that gary was babysitting ahaha. my team lost 12-11. but it was sooo much fun ahahaha.

so in conclusion
my friends are awesome
life is awesome
HOMECOMING THIS WEEKEND! first time going to the dance, haha. so excited though.

xox

sometimes I feel like if I don't update enough I'll forget everything that happens haha. that doesn't make sense but whateverrrr.

these past few days have been interesting...but awesome. saturday was FANTASTIC. went to waterfire with talia, tim, doug, dan, and kelsey. we all walked around all night and took pictures and sat by the water and gossipped and played a pansy game of spin the bottle haha. :D I can't remember any of the exact details anymore, but I remember that it was just a really fun night.

these past few days have been good, too. I've spent these past three days after school at Victor's house playing mahjong with him, billy, garrett, gary, mike, and darien, haha. all boyz + me. but it's okay. I still haven't won a single game of mahjong but it's so funnn gah. I love hanging out with them all though, haha. darien's this freshman that is SUPER COOL. like, he's the new victor, haha. he's so fun to hang out with and talk to. gotta love chill freshman.

yesterday I also practiced lacrosse for a bit after school with talia! it felt nice playing after...what, 4 months? haha. I didn't suck too bad, but I still can't catch really long passes to save my life. gotta work on that since I reeeeally wanna make varsity this year. :) luckily running across the field to get the balls I couldn't catch gave my legs a bit of a workout haha.

today was science club, too. we were watching dr. strangelove, or how I learned to stop worrying and love the bomb. I just wanted to type that whole thing out. I played cards most of the time and then headed to Ocean Bowl, since I think I'm gonna legitimately commit to that this year. yeah.

sooo...two days left and then a three day weekend. can't do anything saturday though since I have to friggin babysit ALL DAY AND NIGHT. :| whatever. haha. school's just getting really overwhelming. every other word that comes up is college and...agh. it's so ridiculous. I'm only a junior but I'm already obsessing over it. can't help it, man. looking at majors is fun, though. NYU has some fabulous programs, not gonna lie.

okayyyy I'd like to get to bed before 11 tonight maybe but I don't know if that's gonna happen. I might as well try.

xox

in all seriousness, last night was awesome. it just took me like 50 tries to spell last and 50 tries to type 50.

anywayyyy, my mom gave me and robin a ride over to the game. we got there early to try to see the band do their competition show but we missed it anyway. -_- so all we got to hear of the band all night was the national anthem and pep songs. eventually, gary, renee, and abby showed up and we all chilled for most of the night. me and robin spent lots of time judging everyone who walked in, lmfao. and scopin' out the hotties~

so our school won like 30 to 6. it was really fun overall. conor, nate, and allegra joined us at one point. AND KATIE WAS THERE TOO! haven't seen her in a while, but it was awesome.

after the game, talia gave me, renee, and gary a ride to the school so the band kids could change, and then her, me, renee, dan, kelsey, doug, gary, and tim walked over to big cheese. they were closing, so we went to papa gino's. we were really loud and obnoxious so I felt bad for the employees but holy shit we had so much fun. like I laughed the hardest I've laughed in a long time last night. :) it's so much fun hanging out with them, too, since I don't get to hang out with people like dan, kelsey, and doug that much. we're all going to waterfire tonight which is gonna be awesome.

sooo it's saturday. before waterfire I have lots of homework to work on and an essay due monday. but other than that, everything's been going fantastic lately. :)

xox

i can't focus on shit to save my life :|

these past few days have been good. they've gradually gotten better. I was really excited to get my English essays back, but I got a B and a C on them...so I was kinda upset. but whatever. we did our presentations in english and dr. sion complimented all the guys and dissed all the girls. EXCEPT ME. since he liked my artistic rendering. fuck yeah ego boost.

all of my other classes have been going surprisingly well, though. I've been doing fucking awesome in history ever since I switched to Cowell's class. Precal? I understand and actually kind of enjoy it. Spanish is boring but easy. Physics is annoying (I can't convert units for shit) but hopefully we'll be moving into non-stupid stuff soon.

today was especially awesome.
english, presentation went well.
history, we played a REVIEW GAME. freshman year flashback much? haha but it went awesomely, I was in a group with abby, lizeth, and robin and WE WON! sooo soupt.
spanish, played with my graphing calculator. :D god how I love sitting in the back in that class.
choir, we didn't do anything.
precal, pretty chill.
computer, WE HAD A SUB, THANK GOD. I can NOT stand all those stupid microsoft office tutorials. so I just chilled with lizeth and abby and did my precal homework.

then we had first official SCIENCE CLUB~ sooo excitin'. we had cookies and apple juice and goldfish, unfortunately there were no gummi bears though. :( but it was still a lot of fun. doug taught us this new card game called asshole that was insanely fun. oh, and I met his sisters! they're like EXACTLY like him haha. then we discussed larping (every tuesday). and apparently I'm doing ocean bowl, too. which I'm okay with now since mr. chun and mr. modica said "I'm really good at making logical guesses, and they haven't had someone like that in years" FUCK YEAH EGO BOOST PART 2.

though I think the highlight of science club was this giant discussion me, tim, dan, kelsey, and victor had with mr. cushman. haha you don't even know how fun it was. it went from socialism to emma watson to screenplays to killing people with chemistry. basically amazing.

then I walked home as usual. I talked with Victor the whole time, though and...it was fantastic. I friggin love that kid. I swear, we're getting so much closer lately and it makes me a much happier person overall. :) he's so great to talk to about like...everything.

andddd now I have to work on an english essay. fuckity fuck fuck I really can't focus. I need to do well on this essay though to CANCEL OUT THAT STUPID C. screw you the sun also rises. bahhhhh.

i'm hungry.

i have piano lessons later.

I feel ridiculously awkward right now. but whatever.

i switch between capital and non-capital i's quite a bit. hm.

friday night, no plans. though I'm not really complaining since I'm a little tired and I really didn't have anything to do anyway. I was gonna go to the football game, but its raining and gross. tal's at a concert, renee's at her brothers concert, I was gonna call robin but I kinda never got around to it :X ah well.

so another week of school went by, and this one was a lot better. my schedule got fixed, got dr. sion for english, and I moved into cowell's history class...which I was upset about at first but quickly realized that it was gonna be a pretty smooth ride, haha. and I'm in a gym class with gina, abby, victor, lizeth...great fun. today I had an AWESOME conversation with victor, abby, and lizeth in gym. we were talking about like...relationships, haha. god it was so fun.

I think me and victor are gonna get closer this year, I just have this hunch. we've been talking a lot from the beginning of this school year to now, and...I dunno. I'm happy about it though. :D I'm getting closer to lizeth too. haha, I brought up lizeth and victor's "relationship" in 8th grade today. good times man.

I'm out of that awkward "holy shit I'm a junior" phase, pretty much...and I think this year is gonna be really great. I'm really excited.

so needless to say I'm pretty content with life right now, haha. I'm making a pact with myself to start reading and writing more. last week I read the five people you meet in heaven, it was really good, and the other day I read looking for alaska, which was AMAZING. I started lovely bones too, which I'll finish soon hopefully.

there's not too much homework this weekend...history thesis though. -_- gonna need to put effort into that. and I need to start working on the collage I volunteered to do for my group for english, haha.

mmm I'm just really relaxed as of late, and I love it. I haven't been listening to as much music as I usually do...I've been reading and playing video games most of the time, haha. whatevaaa.

and to end this journal, well...it's 9/11. it's been 8 years now. everyone has these stories about how devastated they were when they found out when they were younger but...that's not how it worked for me. I remember distinctly the night after it happened, I was having trouble sleeping. usually I just toughed it out, but I REALLY couldn't sleep, so I decided to go downstairs and see my parents. the crash was on the news. I didn't really understand how serious it was at the time. I thought a plane crash was something like a car crash, yeah it was terrible, but it happened frequently and just happened to make the news. I was intrigued by it more than I was disturbed or shocked. I remember school the next day--3rd grade, I believe--we all played in the schoolyard like we normally did. then we lined up to go inside. I looked at my teacher and said "ms. mckenna, did you hear about the plane crash?" she just looked at me with an emotionless face and said "yes, now go inside." it didn't really phase me at the time, though. I remember 9/11/2002, though. the year anniversary. I was in my enrichment class and dr. m brought it up and we discussed it for a little bit...that's when it really hit me. I'll never forget EITHER of those two days.

never forget.

xox

went to renee's house last night! it was me, her, robin, tal, and kang. and it was kang's birthday. we ate macaroni and cheese and cake and frosting and watched this movie called "funny games" that i both loved and hated at the same time and watched law and order and true blood and then gossiped. great fun.

I had a ridiculous dream last night. It's not totally clear to me at the moment, but it involved the field hockey team needing new players, so they recruited me and robin, haha. and for some reason me and robin played it like lacrosse. I scored a goal. haha.

then I was shopping somewhere and I was really hungry and I needed to buy food but I only had like 65 cents but someone (I think it was Gary but I'm not sure) gave me a dime so I had 75 cents. I found this tin of candy that had ash ketchum riding optimus prime and thought it would be appropriate for an alleged robot collection I had, so I was about to buy it but then I woke up.

thank God there's no school today. I need to get all my homework done, haha, laaaaame.

hopefully my schedule's getting fixed tomorrow.

chun told us science club is starting this week. sssssoooooo ssooooouuppppttttt

I had an awesome muffin for breakfast this morning.

that is all, I believe.

xox

So.

The school year started off interestingly, but all in all, it's pretty good. Here's my schedule:

Homeroom: Choir homeroom. AKA funtime with tal, tim, doug, anna, conor, gabe, rich, all of them. Probably the funniest moments of my day happen in homeroom.

Choir: I'm actually excited, haha. It's probably because I'm a junior AND I'm a soprano I AND I'm in chamber now as well. And I made some freshman move so I can stand next to anna. :D I'm looking forward to this year. I hope we do some good songs.

Phyiscs: I got Ms. Walkup, and I wanted Chun for a while, but Ms. Walkup is amazing. She's so amusing and chill, haha. Plus I sit next to Dan D, so I'll do well, haha. also in the class is tim, tal, lauren, kelsey, doug, erryone. Basically my chem class last year MINUS THE ANNOYING PEOPLE~*~*~*~ effin thrilled about that.

Precal: Mrs. Sullivan is amaaaazing. She's really energetic and high maintenance, but in a good way! I think I'm gonna do well in that class. Plus, I've got RENEE!, kelsey, dan, doug, tim, victor, bunch of good people

APUSH: I GOT MAYNARD! YES! so pumped about that. I'm nervous for the workload in this class, but I think I'm really gonna learn a lot and I'm excited. :D people in it = basically the same as physics. so stoked.

Spanish: It's a little boring. -_- we spent the past few days reading the stupid syllabus and we were like OKAY WE'RE BORED NOW. luckily, when seats were assigned, I ended up next to Gary :D spanish buddies again! It's my only class with him though, sadly.

English: I'M IN ENGLISH CP UHWHAT? Gahh. Such bullshit. But whatever. I only really talk to deanna and victor, but that shouldn't matter soon since hopefully I'm getting that fixed this weekend. I'm not getting into all that scheduling drama again, haha.

Computer: Mr. Ruscito, hell yeah, haha. I only really talk to like Anna and Lauren and Michelle but it's pretty amusing. Today he was like "ANY FLOYD FANS HERE?" or "ANYBODY LIKE DEATH CAB FOR CUTIE?" or "ANYONE GOING TO THAT KINGS OF LEON CONCERT?" bahahahaha. I'm probably getting switched out of that class next week, though, due to the english thing.

so there ya go. I don't have any classes with Robin AGAIN which is vurr vurr disappointing, but I'll deal, haha. I see her walking home anyway. It was just the two of us walking home today and it was really awesome and we had a really great discussion and ahhh I love her. :D

I think I'm getting a little closer to Victor, and I'm pretty happy about that. I love that kid, I just wish we could spend more time togethaaa.

and now it's friday. three day weekend. thank the lawd.

xox
gabbie

so summer 09's over. besides me going to China, it was uneventful. a lot of sitting in front of the computer. but there were a ton of events that stood above the monotonous other days.
-abby's party!
-water balloon fight at robin's
-that day I chilled with tim, rich, and conor
-PALS shit
-tonight

tonight was really good. robin, renee, gina, anna, tim, and gary came over. my mom made an awesome dinner and we had a great time.

gah, this sounds like I'm really boring. I'm not, I'm just tireddddd, and EXCITED FOR SCHOOL, NOT GONNA LIE.

junior year. whattup.

xox
gabbie

I JUST WOKE UP LEGIT LIKE 5 MINUTES AGO BUT I HAD AN AWESOME DREAM AND I NEED TO WRITE ABOUT IT.

okay. So I was back in China, and it was day time and we were hanging out by the harbor somewhere, I don't know where it was. I don't remember seeing my actual delegation there, though, I saw kids I know normally and then the LA delegation. But the LA kids weren't actually humans...I mean they looked like them but they were actually giant robots that were designed to help people. Only me and a few other people knew that, I guess.

So we were hanging out in a group, it was me, Anna (haha), and this kid from the LA group. We were talking and it was really great, though Anna didn't know about the robot thing. I kept bringing it up to the LA kid and he didn't seem to mind, then I just remember asking him "when you transform...do your emotions change?" and he was like "yeah, they do..." and it was kinda weird and philosophical and sad.

All of a sudden where we are clicks, and I realize that this is exactly like an episode of the Powerpuff Girls (in my dream, at least), so I start running around telling everyone and I tell the LA kid I was hanging out with and he just sighed and said "I know." so we were just kinda waiting around for the danger to start happening so they would save us.

eventually we saw a helicopter...it was crashing into where we were, so I just looked at him and he nodded and was like "it's time" haha. so him and the other LA kids transformed into robots and got up and stopped the helicopter from crashing. then they transformed back into humans and we were all OMG THANKS. then I remember anna talking to him before the LA kids left, and then she wouldn't tell me what he said (even though it was something about me, obv).

okay, tragic love story over.

so we were leaving, I guess to head back home? even though we didn't need to fly, we just had to drive there, it was weird. I remeber going into this little shack where all our stuff was, packing my back, and fighting with this kid jared over batteries, haha.

so we got home and I ended up at...kang's house? though it wasn't really kang's house, but in my dream it was. we were all sitting around in this big room and it was me and robin, kang was in the kitchen cooking I think. I was telling her about the thing that happened to me and she was like "that's just like an episode of the powerpuff girls!" haha. the room was kinda messy and I guess there were these things hidden around the room that were like chains dangling from the ceiling with disney princesses attached to them, and if you found them it was really significant...I found one, it had cinderella and prince charming dancing, and I looked over at Robin and she was like HOLY SHIT

then I walked down the street (for some reason kang's house was on the same street as mine) to my house, and it was about 6ish at night. so I get in there, my brother has one of his friends sleeping over, and my mom goes "gabbie, I invited some of your friends to sleep over, too." IT WAS JAKE AND AMIR AND SARAH, FUCK YEAH! we just went on the computer and laughed and hung out, it was awesome. me and sarah slept in my room, my brother and his friend slept in my bro's room, and jake and amir slept in the basement. lmao. I remember telling sarah about the robot thing and she was like "THAT'S JUST LIKE AN EPISODE OF THE POWERPUFF GIRLS"

some part of the dream was about columbia (the college) too, but I think it was just jake and amir and sarah talking about it.

gah that was the best dream I've had in a long while.

I had another china/collegehumor related dream about a week ago...I was back in China (AGAIN) and we were working on this mountainside doing stuff, and we all got assigned to random groups. well I got to work with JAKE, AMIR, AND STREETER, WHY IS MY LIFE SO AWESOME. we were sitting in this big room that looked like a room from a convention center, just with restaurant-esque booths set up in it. we were sitting like this
jake --streeter
[[[[table]]]]
amir--me
and me and jake were making jokes and laughing and talking THE WHOLE TIME and occasionally streeter would jump in and laugh but amir just kept getting annoyed since he was trying to do work on his laptop, haha. we went outside and the same thing happened. we went back inside and dan gurewitch was sitting with us now, along with some random girl I know from school. we had to interview this lady that was some big head of a corporation...she looked like medusa. she had what looked like green yarn coming out of her head with green olives on the end of it, and these metallic things that kinda looked like snakes. she was nice though.

then I woke up.

weird shit, man. school starts in 6 days. haha fuck.

i haven't done much recently since I've been inside doing SUMMER WORK FUCK

only 1 book and 1 1/2 chapters of apush left. I can do itttt.

i wanna intern at collegehumor when I'm in college.

xox

why do I feel like this

yesterday I finished chapter 1 of APUSH work. ugh. terrible. 3 chapters to go, woo.

but I finished around 7:30 and then walked over to Tim's and I basically hung out there until 11ish. we were on the porch for a while but the mosquitos were awful so we headed into the living room after like an hour. we talked about a lot of shit. nothing serious though, just random stuff that was really fun to talk about. he got a haircut too :D

last night I had the MOST EPIC FUCKING AWESOME DREAM. I was back on my trip to china and for some reason we all got assigned jobs...TO WORK WITH COLLEGEHUMOR PEOPLE. dlkjfdsfjgn. but like, all the work we did was in a booth at a restaurant. I sat next to Amir and across from us were Streeter and Jake. :D Amir kept getting annoyed since me and Jake were just laughing about everything and Streeter made a joke every now and then, too. and I also realized that Jake was an awful photographer, haha. me and Jake were buds, no lie.

I woke up in the middle of the dream, I was so pissed, haha. we were talking to this lady who was one of our tour guides and her hair looked like medusa, wtf.

but I'm glad I woke up, I don't like sleeping late and missing out on doing stuff. I'll probably start chapter 2 this morning and then eat and take a shower and watch top chef and everything.

school soon. fuck that, haha. nah, I'm kinda excited. homeroom's gonna be AMAZING this year.

PROJECT RUNWAY TONIGHT~~~*~*~*~*~

xox

went shopping with renee and robin today, got a dress, shoes, and a necklace. I need red things.

finished the grapes of wrath, amazing novel. started sun also rises, it's weird.

and I'm having a wall conversation with someone on facebook that's making me very happy, since it's with a person I miss. a lot. :)

life is great.

xoxoxoxox

It's been over a month since I've updated, and what a month it's been. I went to China, which was amazing, but I kept two journals while I was there so I won't post anything from that here. Aside from that, I've hung out with tons of absolutely incredible people that keep my heart beating. I want to start updating about my day to day activities very soon in the near future, and hopefully that will happen in the near future, especially since school is starting.

and this is it: I'm a junior, a goddamn junior, I'm in the 11th grade, I'm graduating in less than two fucking years. I remember entering high school and looking up to the junior class then. When I was in 6th grade, they were in 8th grade, so I always knew them as the "older kids." and now I'm in that position. I really don't know how it feels. It's...I can't describe it.

my mind's been a mess lately. I can't say that's always a bad thing, since I've got some story ideas brewing. I just wish I had a drive to write more.

I wish I had a drive to do anything besides go on the computer and play video games.

I love robin jing joslyn renee talia anna abby gina lizeth kang gary tim conor.

I love life. I'm a bit dramatic but I won't lie, I love everything that's happening and going on around me, despite the fact that none of it really makes sense any place but my head.

...I feel free.

xox

LEAVING FOR CHINA TODAY.
<3
be back the 23rd!
:D

(eventhoughnobodyreadsthis)

xox
gabbie

Summer is so amazing. :)

Soooo I last updated Friday morning. Friday night I walked around my neighhborhood with Renee, Tal, and Kang. Actually, it was more like my street since it was raining outside, haha. We just stood under a tree in the middle of the road since that was the only dry place, haha. Then Talia went to get a sandwich. Fun night.

Saturday was my people to people picnic! :D It was the first GORGEOUS day in a while, and I got to see all of my p2p kidz. We also met these kids that are joining our delegation since both of ours were too small. They're really nice and uh one of them is...preeeeetty attractive. :) I wish I had gotten some pictures that day (of the scenery and the people lol) but I was too busy talking to erryone. Ahhh fun day. <3

The rest of that day (and Sunday) I didn't really do anything. But I had to wear my finger in a splint since I hurt my finger at the picnic while playing football, haha. I wasn't even playing football actually, I just caught it the wrong way. Whateverrrr. It hurts a little less now but I'll still put it back in the splint TO BE SAFE~

Yesterday was really great. Robin, Kang, Peter and the babies stopped by my house in the afternoon since Robin brought me MAJORA'S MASK! And I gave her back Ocarina of Time and Kirby 64. My mom gave the babies popsicles and it dripped all over them, haha. So they left, I went inside and tried to play Majora's Mask, then realized it wouldn't work since I need a certain memory pack. At that point I SPRINTED down the street to meet Robin and them again, haha. So then I met them, went to Robin's, got the memory pack, walked back to my house with her, gave her MY memory pack, and then went our separate ways, haha. Sooo I played Majora's Mask for a few hours, it's fun so far.

Later that night I went back to Robin's 'cause we had a BONFIRE! It was me, Robin, Kang, Renee, Joslyn, Tim, and Gary. Funfunfun. I brought these old strawberry marshmallows that were sitting in my cabinet, haha. We roasted marshmallows and talked about animals and Robin's creepy backyard/swamp and drank this really good Cranberry Sierra Mist. Then I spilled a pitcher of ice cubes (whoops), owned in Pokemon Stadium minigames, helped clean up spilled soda (ROBIN WILL NEVER KNOW), discussed Pokemon/Legend of Zelda, then headed home around 11. Great night.

So I've noticed a few things: I end too many sentences in "haha" and use many parenthetical statements.

fdlkghkfgjn.
CHINA IN 6 DAYS.
Words can't express my excitement. I've begun to organize/pack and I can already tell it's gonna be hectic, haha. But I've had good dreams related to the trip the past few nights which are certainly easing some of my nerves. C: <3

alright, I'm gonna go eat and play N64

xox
gabbie

Summer's been here two days, and I think as of last night, that feeling's finally kicked in. But I'll get to that later.

Wednesday was the first official day out and well...I didn't know what to do with myself really, haha. I was still in school mode a bit since I had to put in some things for my portfolio, but that's done now so it's all good. I went to Gap with my mom in the afternoon and got some new shirts, that's about it. Then I had my last piano lesson until September. Uneventful day.

Yesterday began similarly...tried to do some cleaning, didn't really work, went to my voice lesson, went to the mall with my mom, had drama at the mall with mom...all was problematic until I got home from the mall and Gary called me and told me to go to Victor's house. So I went over there and chilled out with him, Victor, Billy, and Tim. I was the only girl, no big deal, haha. I helped Victor out with designing a shirt and watched Billy and Gary play Halo. I probably would've played if it wasn't online, haha.

While I was there, I signed into Facebook and started reading the statuses on my news feed...that's where we found out that Michael Jackson had died. :( I gotta say, I wasn't really upset at first but later on I was watching the news with my parents and it really hit me. I'm honestly upset that this man died. He was a pioneer of entertainment and culture...he truly was the King of Pop. I wish I had been alive while his career was at his peak so I could've experienced this man's fantastic music firsthand It's a shame that his amazing career was undermined by such petty issues later in his life. I'm just glad that at this time, so many people are forgetting about all that and beginning to fully appreciate this man. Rest in peace.

Alright, sadness aside, me and the boys later decided to walk to McDonald's and grabbed Robin on the way over. I didn't get anything since I was receiving free dinner at my house, haha. Gary and I (I had written "me and Gary" but then I thought of Tim repromanding me for my grammar) walked what was a surprisingly long way back to my house where I ate my dinner, and he headed home to eat his rice, haha. Later on, I met them all back at Victor's house, minus Tim this time, and plus Kang, so I was the only non-Asian person there. :D

I don't exactly remember what we did. We watched a lot of Youtube videos, watched the Boondocks (which I had never watched but is awesome), watched Friends, played Russian Roulette with a Nerf dart gun, discussed larping, and played with a big yellow pool noodle. It didn't sound like much but it was a really really REALLY amazing night.

When I got home from Victor's at 10:45ish, I basically realized that I want every night this summer to be like that. It really was the perfect summer night, since for once, we weren't worrying about school and everything and were just enjoying ourselves in our summer relaxation. I really hope we get to spend more time with Victor this summer...I feel like he somewhat drifted away from us this year, and I just want that to change. Like I said to Robin and Kang last night, he adds a certain liveliness and spontaneity (THAT'S THE WORD) to situations that other people don't...not to mention he used to be one of my closest friends back in 8th grade. This summer's going to be amazing. <3

I know I'm really cheesy for saying this, but gahhh, sometimes I just feel like Brand New narrates my life.

And tonight will go on forever while we
walk around this town like we own the streets
and stay awake through summer like we own the heat

xox
gabbie

p.s. CHINA IN 10 DAYS :) :) :) :) :) :)

My reflection on sophomore year.

( I haven't written this much in a while. )

Choir is like the only time I wanna write here, haha. I'm too busy doing nothing at home that I don't wanna devote any time to actually doing something productive.

Well well. Today is the last day of classes for sophomore year. I'd do a big sentimental entry on it, but I'm in choir and I need time to sort my thoughts. I have an idea of what to do...just not today, haha.

Things have definitely gotten better recently. My foot stopped completely hurting and now I don't have to limp everywhere. I can even wear my sandals without being in throbbing pain, woo! Although a few minutes ago Anna accidentally kicked my foot and it really hurt for a second. :c

I'm trying to think back on stuff that's happened...Wednesday I went with Cait to go rehearse for a show I'm doing with some old teachers of ours. I'd say it went well. We just sat in the back and talked about Pokemon and doodled and made fun of people, haha. Friday was the lacrosse beach party, which was so much fun. :D I headed down there after school with Tal, Robin, and Kang. We got stuck for a while since we had no idea where to go, haha. But when we got there, we had some of the most amazing hamburgers ever, skimboarded (poorly), surfed (almost), and just swam around and had a good time. Too bad my foot started to bother me by the end of it, blah. Regardless, it was tons of fun. I went to bed at 10:30 that night, haha. If only I could do that on school days...

Saturday was graduation. We actually sang really well. I didn't cry...I choked up SO much during For Good, though. But I wasn't actually crying as much as I thought I would, haha. I can't believe so many people have graduated...I met so many amazing seniors this year; Outara, Lily, Ye, Rosenie...gah I'm gonna miss them. And Sunny and Holly! I've known them since I was what, 2? It was so amazing to see them walking across the stage, even though I'm not too close to them. The speeches were awesome, too. Overall, good day.

Sunday I went to Devon's graduation party. I was expecting some big sort of thing but it was just a family party. Lots of good food...Avery made some of the most amazing cupcakes EVER. And one of her relatives had this adorable baby Shawn. C:

When I got home all I really remember doing was...writing my history essay. Which I finished, and think I did okay on. It was so amazing to finish my last WHAP essay. Maybe I'll get an A this quarter...probably not, haha. But yeah. Looking back, that class was awesome, regardless of its difficulty. :)

This week was pretty chill. Not much work. Lots of Twilight Princess (I'm legit obsessed with it now).

I wish I had motivation to write, blah. I've felt so unmotivated lately. I wish I knew what I wanted to do with myself.

Ah well. I'm really hungry so I'll probably go have some of my lunch and just chill. I really hope I make section leaderrrrr.

Tonight I have this show sort of thing as a fundraiser for my trip to China. :D Which is in, what 19 DAYS?!?!!?! :D :D :D

Someone is playing Cancer by MCR on the piano. WOW SHUT UP PLEASE YOU'RE AWFUL

Exams start tomorrow--WAIT I DON'T HAVE TO COME IN LOOOL. So soupt.

xox
gabbie